Quarter Life Crisis

(it's a real thing)

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the, people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot don't seem as fun. You go through the same emotion s and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

Quote of the Day:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Can you relate?

Au Revoir

I want to say a Happy Be-lated B-day to the Blazin Asian John....We did it up for your b-day dude, I hope you remember it, I hope you remember who was there, because you were tore up when you left...as I assume you planned!! It felt good seeing everybody and partying hard like we use to, Representin' DSS, and of course spending some QT with my bruvas.

Topic of the Day:
HomoThugs
What sparked this issue...? Jillians! You are not cute wearing Baggy jeans, Timberlands, and a see thru shirt, that's far from cute, or maybe you think you're Kanye West, and you have on a blazer, a t-shirt and some sneakers, or maybe you like to wear pedal pushers otherwise known as knicker bockers...(not happenin') Let's rewind a little bit...Wearing a tight shirt so that your muscle-bound arms are showcased is not cute, I'm certain you left with tight ring marks around your biceps...
That's just GAY!
Dudes, there is nothing thuggish about sleeping with a dude...Don't get me wrong I don't have anything against being gay...Do you!
Just don't come up and be wearing tight t-shirts, thinking you cute, but be real thorough...it just doesn't mesh well dude!

Now back to the basics:
Let's talk about how old dudes should not go to the club, or old females at that. Stay at home with your kids, or better yet, isn't that what Melbas, and Zanzibar is for...Stay there, do not venture into the 21 and over clubs, a matter of factly, there should be a ceiling, let's say 21 to 30...uhmm..wait...29...Yeah...that's cool, we can party with yall, at least your kids are more than likey only in Junior High...not college!!!

Well people, it's been a pleasure...Black and Gold Ball this weekend...(Hurtin' em)...The birthday weekend celebration is approaching! Hey bruva, how was the Red Maple on Sunday....Hopefully you have some good news about that...Anyways I'll be getting back to you all on the details...Ciao for now!

Why is it that this young whipper snappers think that I want to talk to them...Yeah I might look a little young, why, I look a lot young, but that matter is: I don't want to talk to you, you just got out of high school, you just became able to go to the clubs that I go to...get a grip dude...get a grip...
Dinner party this weekend...the kid has to make a guest appearance...yes indeed, I miss the family...
I'm working on a project and that project is not to be sarcastic. I'm not generally sarcastic, only sometimes when I'm provoked, and you have to be...those situations are prime reasons to be sarcastic...you just have to, especially when someone isn't thinking logically, and you have to break it down for them in terms that they don't understand and it comes out the wrong way....
The funny thing is, I don't like gifted sarcastic people, just sarcastic because the sky is blue...just because, those type of people need to be shot in the foreheads with bee-bee guns, but thats just my opinion...
Anyway...back to the dudes who are like 19, talking bout Shorty...wassup witchu...how about i'm bout to graduate from college, i've worked for a long time and you can't take care of me, get a life, date a high school student, that's normal isn't it...Geesh, get off my case, I like telling my age, sometimes I knock it up one, that's only because my b-day is late, and everybody else's birthday is in the beginning of the year or in the middle of the year. But...who cares
My birthday celebration this year, I don't know what I'm going to do!!! Maybe i'll just tell everyone to meet me at H20 and we will have lot's and lots of fun...that sounds like a plan doesn't it...sometimes I wish I knew some party promoters so that they could throw me a party, i can care less about presents, i just want to be showered with birthday wishes and dance til my heart hurts...yah mean....
Okay I'm tired of typing, I should be stuffing envelopes and that's what I'm going to do after I finish this line with a period. or maybe a few periods... great...that's good... Ciao

I'm not going to do any senseless rambling today, I have class shortly, so just deal with the limited amount of stuff on this entry today.

Let's talk about...Careers...No!...Exercise...No!...Being Broke...Ugghh No!...Men...Okay!!

So have you ever been in a situation when a person is totally and utterly attracted to you, and you have no physical attraction to them...you just want to be there friend...or maybe you've been in a situation when you really cared for someone, but they fell in love with you over a 3 month time period and now they want to take it to the next level.

Yeah...there is this person whom I think is very cool, chill guy...nice guy...just not really...what I like physically...He's always pushing up on me, and always wanting to tell me what he can do for me....I doubt it very seriously buddy...but anyway...the child knows my cell number and he emails me...Why did I do this to myself....Is there a very nice way to tell a person... You're not as cute as you think you are, and well I'm not physically attracted to you, actually, I'm not attracted to you at all, the thought makes my tummy rumble...Urghhhh huhmmph...not a good feeling.
Or maybe you've really liked a guy and you think wow, this is comfortable...fun even, but you realize that he wants more than you can give to him at that time, and he loves you...he's fallin in love with you, and it's only been 3 months...okay maybe it was more like 5, but you get the point. And then he wants to make you feel like the bad guy, because he doesn't remember you telling him when you first met him, I'm single and I like it that way...I don't have the time for a boyfreind or friend with benefits...I'm trying to do me now....and that's it...no commitment!
Geesh I remember that quite vividly...and I don't remember stuff, but I usually remember my Disclaimer....the disclaimer is what gets you all the time...ladies and gentlemen, never forget to state your disclaimer it will help you out in the long run...say it on your first phone convo...give them a business card with the disclaimer on the back...geesh do something...would you...?

Okay people...Ciao for now, I'll talk to you all later...I gotta pee!

So I went to water on Sunday night...I must say I had a good time! How do I know I had a good time, because my legs still hurt...We were hot stuff on Sunday night...You would think you hear the name "Ginuwine" a crap load of girls would be at the club, but no...it was a mass of men, a sea even....Now the fish weren't all that appetizing, but the abundance was good, mad dudes were on my jock...Why...One guy kept putting his hands on my waist talking 'bout...you are so cute, like "this much" and he would use hand gestures to indicate, "a little bit"... at that point i had to walk away, because you don't tell a woman, she's a little bit cute...was that a pun to my height... Anyway
Why do I give out my phone number, it's because I feel sorry for people...I really don't want to give you my number, but the likelihood of us meeting up again is evident, the Baltimore-Washington-Virginia area is full of the same people that you see every weekend...Hopefully these people won't remember my name or at least remember that they even went out on Sunday... Drunks are hilarious
I'm looking for living quarters...and that's all that I'll say about that...I'm not going to tell you were I'm looking, you might want to come and visit...and I don't want you to visit...basically.
I'm so sorry that I've been neglectful to the blog, it is a great outlet for me, to be creative, funny and well downright honest...
So I want to say I love you to my peeps, my extending family (whom I haven't seen in like forever), and to all of the fellow blog readers...
Holla at cha girl...

Question:
Where are the party's at people? and a better question is, Are they free?

Nothing funny today...it's a normal day..school is definitelyl in affect!! Ciao